So, obviously, I haven't posted in a while. It is with good reason. I was in the midst of two very demanding classes. Now, I am free of their grips. In a week, I will be in the grasps of three very demanding classes. I keep telling myself this is all a means to an end. To anyone who reads this, I am sorry for neglecting my duties. I will try to keep up at least once a week. Anyway...
My day started out in a fog, this is all thanks to the great meds my doctors (note the plural form) have me on. My days always start this way now. When I got up I did the human necessities. After I left the home front, I decided to prepare for the long anticipated release of Twilight (out in 1 more day)- I went shopping and purchased everything I could get my hands on that was Twilight, but especially Edward Cullen. I can't wait for my copy to arrive in the mail :) I just have to give a plug to Steph and her Twilight series. Yes, I am one of those Twilight people and proud of it. I also purchased several other things, but that is so characteristic of me I don't think I need mention it.
SO, on the news today I heard tomorrow is officially the first day of spring. I canNOT put into words how ecstatic this makes me. I hate the cold. I hate the wet and cold. I hate winter up here. It depresses me more than I already get depressed. Today, with the news that I heard, I felt this little bubble of giddiness in me, just below my rib cage. SO...
I purchased a salad to-go after my shopping spree and went to a local metro park. The building that leads into the main park where the gift shop/learning center is is lined with glass doors/windows. I decided to get out and have a peek at the gift shop. I walked out of the gift shop and looked out of the glass doors and decided to walk the grounds of the park. This is something I have not done in two years. As I walked, I came across the trails I haven't walked in a LONG time. I love trails, I love the woods, I love the thought of getting lost and being alone. I went on the trails, even though the idea of getting lost and being alone in these woods in the middle of a large city is completely a delusion.
I walked and walked. It felt great. So many thoughts and feelings that I have been suppressing or barley dealing with came bubbling to the surface as I tripped (literally) and drugged up the path while listening to my music and thinking and remembering and dealing. I felt a sense of anger, then panic, then despair, longing, and calm come over as I walked over the path. Then, finally, when I reached the end of the trail and had taken a few pictures, I was okay.
I think I will have to do that more often.
